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So… I’m probably late to the game on this one, but this site is SO cool!

I have the worst eclectic and erratic taste in music, so most of my running music in the past has varied from Beastie Boys to Tiffany to Susan Boyle to Cee Lo. Not so much for any sort of cohesion.

Granted my new playlist is still all over the place… But it’s all music that should put me at a really great running pace for me. And it totally has!

A fully bulleted post of randomness…

• There’s been a whole lotta L to the AZY happenin’ in my life… Need to do laundry… badly (see next point). Need to vaccuum. Take out garbage. Do dishes.
• Feet = super blisters (I may have run out of clean socks… and not worn any with my shoes yesterday at work and now holy hella blisters!)
• Was supposed to run Tuesday night, but didn’t (see first point). Ran last night instead. Sooooo slow. Couldn’t get through my second or third 10 minute intervals…
• Want this: SLOW… is the new fast
• I use the Nike+ app on my iPhone and… are you ready??? I’ve run over 200k! Woo!
• I like that I can measure running in such a real way.
• I’m leaving for a conference in 6 days
• I have a long distance movie date scheduled for this weekend…
• I’m really thinking that Moxie is amazing and that if you’re not following her, you really really should. She rocks the support big time and she’s awesome!
• Also, I’m super jealous of the dual monitor action that she seems to got going on at work.
• I have four days left of work until the great unknown.
• I’m more than likely going to reapply for my job… It might end badly. We’ll see…
• Have to run again tonight. 5k. Doable.
• I’m so broke. $5 until tomorrow…
• Randomness complete. Thank you for bearing with that.

me… just now. in total denial that it’s Thursday.

Shout out to my new followers!

What up, yo?!? Thanks for following along. I tried to take a pic of myself waving hello to you all, but… um… I take terrible pictures of myself. Like really terrible.

I would also like to thank everyone for the comments and likes this week. The feedback and support means a lot!

I signed up for a 5k running training program in March. I was looking for the accountability. I was looking for the people. A group to run with.

I enjoyed it. A lot.

That is… until things got a little weird.

One of the guys in the running group was possibly hitting on me… Whether serious or not, he was at least making jokes about running behind me and that apparently he would “do me.”

I laughed it off and talked more about my upcoming trip to Texas. To see my man-friend (I have no clue what to call him!). Hoping that that would deter the comments. And then there were jokes about my going a very long way for a booty call.

Again, I laughed it off. (I’m not good at this stuff)

When I had gotten back from my trip, running-group-guy asked how the trip had gone. I replied, “Texas was lovely.” We had a nice enough time that I didn’t want to share too much, or have any of it made fun of, or anything. So, I talked less than I probably normally do.

His response?

I banged a chick this weekend. And this’ll really piss you off: she was 25!

FYI: he’s 50. (I swear I’m not age-ist! If they happen to love each other or this works for both of them, that’s awesome! I didn’t really get that impression though…)

Anyway, things really went downhill from there. The last few weeks I was pretty much the only woman coming out. And the comments got worse. Now, he pretty much comments on every woman that walks by. Whether he would “bang” them. If their ass is good. If it’s not.

I’ve stopped going.

So, that’s my run group story. Is this a thing? Am I being overly sensitive?

So, as you may be aware… I’ve been super down in the dumps lately (might not change for a little while, either). It has made running really hard.

Internal thought process while running sounds a little like this:

I hate running.

I hate running.

I hate running.

And yet, I’ve been getting out there. Hating most minutes of it. (And there’s the running group tale, that should be coming out later on today)

So, I wasn’t expecting much of this race. My feet have been hurting, I’ve been feeling the running in my shins, and running is suddenly hurting my behind.

Not a happy camper.

Oh, and the weather forecast? Rain.

But apparently I ran my little behind off. Cause I got a new PR! I did my 5k in 36:24!!!

Six weeks ago I PR’d in my 5k race at 39(something). So, I’m extraordinarily proud. I even double-checked the distance in case it was a bit short of 5k or something.

Things I learned/confirmed before 8am Sunday morning (that is, yesterday)…

1. Moxy’s PBCB is really as worth it as you all say, and…

2. It’s really freakin hard to spread PB on a banana!

3. When enjoying PBCB floss is important.

[Ed. note: I’ve been trying - and obvs failing - since yesterday morning to post this!]

Okay (holy poop, yo! Can you see the sweaty mess here?!?)

Running in the country with the sunsetting is not just beautiful… It’s also full of evil little blackflies!

But I’m finding my groove again running without my group (more on this later!).

Tonight was a little over 4k at a 7:40/k pace… of which I’m quite pleased!

Here’s hoping that I don’t soon find a bunch of bug bites.

I seriously can’t remember the last time I wore a skirt.

This isn’t a weight loss thing. The scale hasn’t really budged. This is a confidence thing.

This is, somehow in how down I’ve been, feeling good about myself.

Argh!

I’m SO lazy and broke right now!

SO stressed and the thought of running hasn’t been helping… It’s just stressing me out more. I have 10 days left of working at this job that I’ve hated since December. (Okay, okay, I don’t hate the job, as I have mentioned before… I really love the job… but it has really felt like an abusive relationship. True. Story.)

10 days.

It’s stressing me out.

I don’t know how I’ll pay my bills. I don’t know how I’ll make healthy choices. Last summer (after I graduated) it took almost four months to find work… I gained a lot of weight. I’m nervous. And I’m feeling less in control than I have in a while.

But, today in food was pretty good. Running tonight.

And slowly. I’ll get the control back.